Motivation & My Cathartic Release

I had a plan earlier this week. I spoke with one of my sissies about a few blog topics after she had the opportunity to read through some of my blogs. She wanted to share her interpretation of the topics that would have been most helpful for her when she first came out as a sissy. Don’t get me wrong - I absolutely love, cherish and value these amazing perspectives and I was motivated to write about these topics. I even started a few days ago.

I had an idea of how things would play out this week and they didn’t go this way. Sometimes I become overwhelmed with taking on too much and my motivation can be impacted by stress.

Motivation is such an interesting concept. Some people have it, some people don’t and sometimes motivation can slip away due to a variety of reasons or for no reason at all. I had the opportunity to speak to an amazingly motivated individual this week during a T&A session and how he sometimes has a difficult time understanding how people don’t have the same level of motivation as he does. I’m absolutely amazed of how much motivation a person can have and how stress cannot exhaust their drive to succeed, but can even motivate them more in some situations. I accept my limitations and ensure I don't stay stuck in the place of using breaks as a crutch to not remotivate myself.

My intentions of not responding right away aren’t personal - sometimes texts and emails are missed and sometimes they are put on the back burner for personal reasons.

My delayed replies on my social media aren’t targeted to specific people.

My blogs topics are usually just something I feel passionate about sharing in the moment, even though I have many more topics that I’m excited to talk about when the time feels right.

I don’t know of any other way to describe the way that my mind works other than doing what feels right for me in the moment, when I have the energy and motivation so I can feel authentically like myself when I am engaging. I have a clearer mind and I can formulate thoughtful and logical responses. And this is the type of free spirited energy that I like to bring into my sessions.

I do what I do because I love it. I’m passionate about it. I ensure that I am always loyal to those who reserve time to spend with me and I never cancel unless there is a personal emergency or I am sick. It brings me joy to bring joy to others, to hear things like, “it was the best experience I’ve ever had” or “thank you for giving me time to actually listen to me”. Seeing the positive impact that I have on others for just being me will never be diminished by how many people I meet. Compliments, thoughtful words, genuine feedback of time spent together and authenticity is what makes my life and what I do have value. I’ve never felt so needed and important in my life.

Thank you for reading this cathartic blog of random written thoughts, which was well needed to boost motivation. I hope it shines a light on some of my personal struggles and provides insight into a part of who I am as a person.