Why Do I Like Pain? - By Bob Villa

There is an element of me that loves touch and contact, even when it’s combined with pain; even when it came with a hit on the football field; even when it came with a dental hygienist putting her hands in my mouth.  

Yet, if I go deeper, I don’t actually like pain; I don’t get any unique endorphin release that makes pain pleasurable.  I like women who enjoy giving me pain.

There’s nothing hotter to me than a cute girl who enjoys putting her foot on my throat, or leaving a mark on my ass from my hitting me with my own belt.  I like sadists.  I’m attracted to a woman who derives genuine pleasure from hurting me, or making me uncomfortable; not unlike the bully who gets enjoyment from making others cry ‘uncle’.

The pain itself is actually unpleasant.  I had a Domme who was in n the process of giving me 10 strikes across the ass with a strap.  I cried ‘mercy’ after 4; it hurt so badly. 

If anything, the the only time I remember enjoying the feeling was sitting down the next morning and my ass was still sore.  The pain was a momento of the session.  I was so proud a week later when a massage attendant commented on the marks on me “What happened to you?!?”

Then there’s pegging.

I’ve been pegged by Dommes dozens of times and it very rarely feels good.  Some Dommes tell me “….then you’re doing it wrong”; but my favourite Dommes say “It’s not supposed to feel good.”

One of the first times I was pegged; I wrote the Domme beforehand asking to be hate-fucked.  She did and I really hated being fucked.  After about 30 seconds I wanted it to be over and as I felt her hips slam into my ass, I told myself I would never pay to have this done to myself again.  The longest I’d ever between pegging is a year.  I relive that session in my head frequently when I want to fantasize.

I am continually drawn back to pegging.  To me there is no better way to demonstrate dominance over another person, than to put yourself inside of another person, in a very uncomfortable, usually painful way.

Some of my favourite porn is to watch amateur clips of wives pegging their husbands.  Do they do it just for their husbands? I suspect they enjoy it too; making their partner vulnerable, being in complete control of someone, their partner, in that moment and causing them a little pain.

Bob Villa